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Cats
Since Caisha died, I've been asking myself if I want another cat. We'd talked about maybe this spring adopting a young-but-adult cat instead of a kitten, because Tegan isn't old enough to not kill a kitten by accident yet. I recognize it would be nice... but I'm not sure anymore. We've got the two, and ok, neither of them seems to like me much... but letting Caisha go was the hardest thing I've had to do with pets, even harder than with Shinji. I've tried to pretend that Shinji was harder, because he was my baby, and so clearly adored me... but Caisha was with me for twelve years, and while he wasn't as demonstrative as Shinji, the truth is that Caisha was the kind of cat you'd expect a person like me to have--staid, stoic, and kind of stand-offfish. I miss him terribly; I still see lumps of dark clothing and think he's there for an instant. I wake up at night, experience the lack of Caisha on my legs, and am saddened. But... I'm not sure I can do it all again, at least not for a while yet.
Death
Even though my grandfather appears to be stable, for now, I still can't shake the feeling that we're just waiting for him to die. I try to visit him regularly, but it's hard, because he's so unable to communicate that it's almost pointless to try communicating at all. We tried to give him a keyboard yesterday, and he could not even hunt and peck anything--the keyboard just doesn't make sense to him anymore; his language skills are gone.
Other Stuff
I'm insanely jealous of Cherie Priest, because her latest book got nominated for a Nebula award. I was reading Cherie's blog back when she was only an aspiring author, making her the first author I've ever followed from obscurity to "marketable." I wish she'd post more about the actual writing craft on her blog; on the other hand, I'm not writing the same kind of stuff she is, so perhaps it wouldn't be helpful to me. At any rate, I congratulate her (I'm pretty sure she isn't reading me anymore, but still) and also thank her--because her recent post about the Nebula got me to start actually
working on writing again.
Also thanks to Jim Butcher. His posts about writing have helped me immensely, and his forum is the kind of thing I hope to have someday for my own fans. If you go there, tell him I sent you. He'll spend about .00006 seconds wondering who you're talking about, then shrug and move on to writing another bestseller.
Incidentally, I hate the way LJ formats emailed posts. I always end up fixing it from home.
Since Caisha died, I've been asking myself if I want another cat. We'd talked about maybe this spring adopting a young-but-adult cat instead of a kitten, because Tegan isn't old enough to not kill a kitten by accident yet. I recognize it would be nice... but I'm not sure anymore. We've got the two, and ok, neither of them seems to like me much... but letting Caisha go was the hardest thing I've had to do with pets, even harder than with Shinji. I've tried to pretend that Shinji was harder, because he was my baby, and so clearly adored me... but Caisha was with me for twelve years, and while he wasn't as demonstrative as Shinji, the truth is that Caisha was the kind of cat you'd expect a person like me to have--staid, stoic, and kind of stand-offfish. I miss him terribly; I still see lumps of dark clothing and think he's there for an instant. I wake up at night, experience the lack of Caisha on my legs, and am saddened. But... I'm not sure I can do it all again, at least not for a while yet.
Death
Even though my grandfather appears to be stable, for now, I still can't shake the feeling that we're just waiting for him to die. I try to visit him regularly, but it's hard, because he's so unable to communicate that it's almost pointless to try communicating at all. We tried to give him a keyboard yesterday, and he could not even hunt and peck anything--the keyboard just doesn't make sense to him anymore; his language skills are gone.
Other Stuff
I'm insanely jealous of Cherie Priest, because her latest book got nominated for a Nebula award. I was reading Cherie's blog back when she was only an aspiring author, making her the first author I've ever followed from obscurity to "marketable." I wish she'd post more about the actual writing craft on her blog; on the other hand, I'm not writing the same kind of stuff she is, so perhaps it wouldn't be helpful to me. At any rate, I congratulate her (I'm pretty sure she isn't reading me anymore, but still) and also thank her--because her recent post about the Nebula got me to start actually
working on writing again.
Also thanks to Jim Butcher. His posts about writing have helped me immensely, and his forum is the kind of thing I hope to have someday for my own fans. If you go there, tell him I sent you. He'll spend about .00006 seconds wondering who you're talking about, then shrug and move on to writing another bestseller.
Incidentally, I hate the way LJ formats emailed posts. I always end up fixing it from home.