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Apr. 24th, 2006 08:30 am
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Comment, and I shall give you a letter. Go back to your journal, and write ten words beginning with that letter, including an explanation what the word means to you and why.
Misha gave me B. B? What the hell?
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Misha gave me B. B? What the hell?
( Letter Meme )
Apr. 24th, 2006 08:38 am
Light at the end of the tunnel
I hit the ten-page mark on one of my term papers. That means that I can wind it down, according to the teacher, but I'm aiming for twenty pages, so eh. I'll be handing in that ten to the professor tomorrow for his input, though--I'm a little worried I might have gone on too long on the history section (this is the paper on the comic book as young adult literature), and since I'm aiming for publication on this paper, I need feedback.
The remaining papers are a biography of my friend Mike (easy as hell) for Ethnicity (The Asian American Experience; Mike escaped the Khmer Rouge, so he's an excellent subject) and an examination of the Boxer Rebellion and how it contributed to the fall of the Imperial Court of China, which is hard, but not mind-killingly so.
My aunt wishes to throw a graduation party for me. She's left it up to me to decide if it will be in May around my graduation or in June, when some other family members will be out here for my Uncle Karl's 75th birthday. I'm tempted to ask her to hold it until then, hoping that it will be not only a celebration of my graduation but of my actually entering the teaching profession for real. On the other hand, if I wait and I don't get into the program, it'll be a little bittersweet for me. What to do, what to do?
I should find out this week if I managed to win the Bazzanella Literary Award. I'll be ok if I didn't, but I really want it--not so much for the prize money as for the prestige and the acknowledgement from people other than teachers (the judges are neither CSUS staff nor faculty) that yes, I can write, thank you. Besides, it would look good on my resume. First place would be most amazingly cool, of course, but I'll take second happily enough.
All in all, I'm in a pretty good mood. I decided this weekend, while buried in my work, that I can't stress too much about these papers I have to do -- I'm going to get them done, because I have no choice, and I know that, so why stress out? All I can do is work on them and do my best. Whether or not I'm accepted by SCUSD is probably mostly up to my interview now, so I can't stress about that too much without blowing it. I'm reminding myself that there are teachers whose opinions I trust who think I can do this. That helps. Now I just need that call to set up an interview, and I'm set.
You know what, though? Even if I don't get accepted, all is not lost. There's a backup, and if that fails, it only sets me back a short while; I have a tertiary backup plan that will get me there, eventually. And in the end, no matter what happens with my career plans, I've made it through to my degree. That alone is an accomplishment, even if it did take me far longer than I feel it should have. I should never have left school, but I did, and though it took me a decade to come back like I said it would, I did come back, and I finished this degree, and no one can take that away from me.
The remaining papers are a biography of my friend Mike (easy as hell) for Ethnicity (The Asian American Experience; Mike escaped the Khmer Rouge, so he's an excellent subject) and an examination of the Boxer Rebellion and how it contributed to the fall of the Imperial Court of China, which is hard, but not mind-killingly so.
My aunt wishes to throw a graduation party for me. She's left it up to me to decide if it will be in May around my graduation or in June, when some other family members will be out here for my Uncle Karl's 75th birthday. I'm tempted to ask her to hold it until then, hoping that it will be not only a celebration of my graduation but of my actually entering the teaching profession for real. On the other hand, if I wait and I don't get into the program, it'll be a little bittersweet for me. What to do, what to do?
I should find out this week if I managed to win the Bazzanella Literary Award. I'll be ok if I didn't, but I really want it--not so much for the prize money as for the prestige and the acknowledgement from people other than teachers (the judges are neither CSUS staff nor faculty) that yes, I can write, thank you. Besides, it would look good on my resume. First place would be most amazingly cool, of course, but I'll take second happily enough.
All in all, I'm in a pretty good mood. I decided this weekend, while buried in my work, that I can't stress too much about these papers I have to do -- I'm going to get them done, because I have no choice, and I know that, so why stress out? All I can do is work on them and do my best. Whether or not I'm accepted by SCUSD is probably mostly up to my interview now, so I can't stress about that too much without blowing it. I'm reminding myself that there are teachers whose opinions I trust who think I can do this. That helps. Now I just need that call to set up an interview, and I'm set.
You know what, though? Even if I don't get accepted, all is not lost. There's a backup, and if that fails, it only sets me back a short while; I have a tertiary backup plan that will get me there, eventually. And in the end, no matter what happens with my career plans, I've made it through to my degree. That alone is an accomplishment, even if it did take me far longer than I feel it should have. I should never have left school, but I did, and though it took me a decade to come back like I said it would, I did come back, and I finished this degree, and no one can take that away from me.
