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I'm really nervous about school.

Once my grades for this semester come out, I have to send my transcript to CSUS. This is the last step in my application before they make their decision. And it's the one that will make or break me. Once they have that, they go to decision time. And even though I've been assured that I qualify, that I'm ready (except for Statistics, which is the class I'll be taking this spring), I'm scared.

See, algebra hasn't been so bad this semester. On the first four chapter tests (two chapters per test), I got an A, two Bs, and a C. Pretty good so far, but on the last chapter test, I'm pretty sure I got a D or lower. Which means I have to do well on the final to insure I get at least a C. I'd positively LOVE to get higher than a C, and I'm trying, but I'll be perfectly happy with a C grade.

Speaking of Cs... next semester will be the last semester I can get a grade lower than a B in just about any of my classes. After that, I can get a C in Japanese, and maybe in another elective, if I take one, but I have to get Bs or higher in all my English classes. Now, this shouldn't be too hard; I've certainly learned the value of studying, but it is/will be pressure. I do worry about it, but at the same time I tell myself that I can do it. I have the ability. And more importantly, I have elisandra, who will give me the emotional support I'll need to get through this without failing -- and without becoming a ghost to those who know and love me.

This does explain, though, the weirdness in me lately. I'm at a cruxpoint vis a vis my education -- do I get into CSUS, and thus continue what I started when I left EMH, or do I get rejected, and have to spend even more time in crap jobs and crap classes? And despite assurances from all possible sources, I'm left worried. Tense. My back feels like I haven't relaxed it in years, my neck hurts almost constantly. Add this to my financial nightmare and it's just peachy.

Tei'a Tei'an'te

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I shall endeavour to complete my homework by 8pm tonight so that I may watch Horatio Hornblower unfettered by reality.

For those unaware, Horatio Hornblower is an A&E movie series based on the books by CS Forrester. A&E began the movies back in 1998 with four movies, based on the events in the first book, Mr. Midshipman Hornblower. In 2001, they made two new movies, The Mutiny and Retribution, concerning Horatio's court-martial after a mutiny at sea in which he was implicated. At the end of that, Horatio was given command of his own ship. I have all six of these movies on DVD, should locals wish to borrow them or come over to watch them sometime.

The two new movies, Duty and Loyalty, air tonight and tomorrow, on A&E, at 8pm. And I could not be happier.

Starring Ioan Gruffud, Paul McGann, and Julia Sawalha (Lydia from "Pride and Prejudice" as well as AbFab) as Horatio's wife.

Yay! Matthews and Styles (two of the supporting cast, my favorites from Horatio's crew) return! (Can you tell I'm rediculously happy about this?)

IMDB page for the latest movie

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Ugh. Crossposted to my own journal

( Short rant about the Gallifrey One 2004 convention )

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I thought this was funny. It's from the San Francisco Chronicle.

( Jon Carroll on trucks and the mania for them. )